it's been a while...

since I've felt the urge to write. more than snippets of rhyming couplets anyway.

I have absolutely no clue where this entry is going just that my friend recommended that the reason i feel so 답답해 (heavy/frustrated) is that i've been neglecting my emotional self lately....

i think i'll come back to this when i figure out exactly what i mean by that?!  

when i have a ton of things to do...so much that I can't move and am simply paralyzed by the daunting task of it all...i like to write a quick poem.

poetry? why poetry you say?

because if you do it right, you can get most feelings you have down on paper (much more difficult to do with free writing as i tend to get sidetracked then)....and while you're writing rhyming couplets it forces you solely to focus on those thoughts and emotions rather than the other plethora of STUFF that is simultaneously seeking your attention.

i simply find it perfect for first focusing and then letting go...

so it's not perfect but here's today's morning thoughts hopefully a little less jumbled now.

<3, tine 


don't get attached
to things that are ephemeral
don't lose yourself
among those who mull
and sully your purpose for being here
who cause you to doubt
and increase your fear

don't fight battles you're meant to lose anyway
simply
see this for what it is
at any moment of doubt just say
it's a chance to experience and better
this

so called life of yours
remind yourself of goals you set
and refrain from participating in the gossip lores
of your small town community outlet

keep your vision first and foremost
remember who you were
and who you want to be
don't give into easy things favored by most
instead be inspired
by those who challenge what they see

forever altering your perspective
of all that is possible
who with goals, purpose, and life they live
not a charmed existence,
but rather one full

of passion and fulfillment
of purpose and deliberation
who seek a life they've carved with their own sentiments
and who surround themselves with cause for celebration

don't be waylaid by little bouts of jealousy
and instead allow them to push your own journey
remember that people are important
but in this matter quality over quantity is meant

don't hold back others with your feelings
instead release them and allow them to be.
those meant to stay will find it freeing
to come back repeatedly, you'll see

remember you're not
alone in this path for the true life and you
He feels your needs and understands your heart
He stands always there with you. 


**it's all over the place and definitely needs editing but my 20 mins is up! so until next cac...

<3, tine

the graying lines
of clouds combine
to form this stormy weather
that speaks to melancholy mine
and can't help but
make me feel better

little taps of raindrops fall
against my dusty window
and slide down to
remind me of all
that I've been known to let go

times moving faster and faster
reminding me that
this is just a stop
on the journey
to what really matters
that life is what it is atop

all that I've come to know
and it waits for no one
forcing me to move and grow
that when i think i've already started,
I've actually only just begun